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Sam Winchester [AU] ([personal profile] milesfromfine) wrote2013-09-18 12:32 pm

My life's a jigsaw puzzle with the corner pieces missing.

True to their word, Ellen and Bobby had Sam in a real rehab center just as quick as they could arrange it. He wasn't sure how they'd managed it financially and that worry weighed on him as much as all the rest. Another item to add to the miles-long list of ways he'd complicated their lives.

He hadn't seen or heard from Dean since Bobby found him in that motel, either. His brother might have finally given up on him. Sam couldn't help but be a little glad for him, even though he felt the loss like a physical wound every day.

The rehab place wasn't... awful. Sam was messed up enough to resent being there and the withdrawals he suffered through in the first few days were horrific, although they did have medicines that helped a little. After he'd come through them and began to resemble something more like human, they'd started his treatment.

Or, tried to, anyway. Sam wasn't really interested in 'opening up' to strangers and being locked in a place he couldn't leave wasn't really encouraging him to change his mind on it. Progress was slow. Very slow. Sam wasn't sure he'd ever get to leave the place, which was probably exactly what he deserved.

The only part of the whole mess that didn't suck completely was the time each day that he was permitted to sit in the sun room with the other patients. He hadn't really done much in the way of mingling, but it was nice to sit in the seats along the big windows and feel the sun on his face for a while.
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-09-19 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
Gabriel's been accused of having choice bits of his spine removed to relax that easily. He gives another languid stretch, winking at Sam. "Even though we're all stars of America's Least Wanted? Yeah, I know the drill. Been here enough times to know the drill."

He waggles his eyebrows at Sam. "Love affair with the bottle. You? What're you in for?"
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-09-19 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
"Busy guy," he nods sagely. There's no recrimination, not even any sympathy really in his expression. They've both been there, done that, got the crappy tshirt. So why paste on all the false platitudes that came with AA and therapy when they never really worked to begin with?

"Yep. In and outta places like this the last ten years or so. But I kinda like this place. Decent food, good staff, and they let me keep a sugar stash to stave off the sugar shakes."

He leans forward, "But you've got all the look of a first-timer."
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-09-19 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
"Always has. The ladies were right you know." Gabriel winked at a passing nurse. "Chocolate cures all. Helps with the booze detox. Replaces the sugar from the alcohol with just good ol' fashioned refined sugar. Hear it helps with just about everything except meth."

He grins easily, "Been around this block a few times, kiddo. Think I'd have noticed you before. Lemme guess, first time, just cleared out of detox?"

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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-09-19 03:12 am (UTC)(link)
"Hey, if we were clear in the head we wouldn't be here," he joked.

Gabriel stretched and laced his hands behind his head. "Isn't that what the therapists always try and tell us? We're a little wrecked which is why we wind up on whatever we wind up on?"
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-09-19 07:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Gabriel snorts out a laugh. "If I listened to them would I keep winding up here? Nah, I've just been through this place enough times to know the routine backwards and forwards. Healing, responsibility, all that usual bullshit."

"Least the sun room is comfy, right?"
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-09-19 10:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"You gone outside? Checked out the garden? There's a pretty nice pond outside." Gabriel is undaunted by Sam's quiet. In fact, he'd probably be concerned if Sam was chatty.

"Sun's nicer too. Wanna check it out?"
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-09-20 01:45 am (UTC)(link)
He talked, it was kind of his thing. Some people withdrew, went a little nutty during rehab, but not Gabriel. Talking to other people was the closest he got to something like therapy. After all, if he couldn't help himself, why not try and at least be sociable?

"Sure. I don't think it occurs to a lot of folks that we can walk around outside, get a little fresh air. Something that smells a little less like despair."

Reaching out, Gabriel took his hand. "C'mon Stretch. Let's get some air."
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-09-20 01:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Gabriel was a grabber. Personal space didn't mean much to him and if Sam didn't protest, sooner or later he was going to find the smaller man hanging off him. Touch was soothing, calming, and Gabriel was starved for it. He kind of hoped Sam was the same.

He chatted as they walked outside, pointing out the various orderlies, who could sneak in extra candy if you asked and Bob who was on cloud nine because he finally asked out Nancy over in the cafeteria. Everywhere they went, Gabriel knew someone.

Outside by the little pond, Gabriel flopped down in the cool grass. "There used to be a family of ducks that hung out here. Haven't seen them since I came back. Guess they moved on."
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-09-21 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
It didn't matter really if Sam was contributing or not. Gabriel talked, he got a vaguely noncommittal 'mhm' for his trouble now and then, it was good enough. The grass was cool, the air fresh and someone actually wanted to spend time with him without making some excuse on why they had to leave.

Because sooner or later they all did.

Sam is rewarded with a burst of delighted laughter at the joke. Gabriel grins, clapping him on the shoulder. "Think we'll be able to fly outta here one day?"
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-09-21 05:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe it slipped out, but it was an encouraging sign. Meant that Sam wasn't as dead inside as a lot of the others in rehab. He still had a spark of something bright in him and Gabriel immediately resolved to make Sam smile as often as he could.

"Think if I get enough sugar in me I could hummingbird my way outta this joint?" He looks over Sam with a faintly critical eye. "We're gonna need it by the truckload if you're coming with."
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-09-22 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
Gabriel followed suit, laying on his side next to Sam. Probably too close, but if Sam hasn't complained about personal space yet, why start now? "Hm. Maybe, you never know."

"It's a nice day, company's good. Some days, 's not so bad here."
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-10-10 02:48 am (UTC)(link)
Gabriel lays a hand on his chest before resting his chin on it. That's twice now. He's on a roll. Looking pleased with himself, he grins up at him. "Then I'll just have to say it more often. The company is good, kiddo and the weather is nice."
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[personal profile] low_key_angel 2013-10-10 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
He snorts out a laugh, "You wouldn't be the first to question it, kiddo. But 's okay. I think my judgement's just fine in this case. You're a nice guy, good looking, trying to make good - see? Good company all around."

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